Your New World.

A long time ago you left my world. Our world. It's okay. Nobody is meant to stay in one place forever, but you see, I had plans for us. Now I figure out boys, school, friends, and graduation alone. You are there for it all, but just orbiting my planet with your planet. Orbiting the world you left a long time ago.

I had plans for when I got my first real job, and when I got married and had children. I had plans for you to be involved in it all. I want you involved, but more than anything I want you to WANT to be involved. You don't and that's okay because I am not apart of your world. Out of sight, out of mind.

There are moments where I start to believe you are coming back to me to make all my plans a reality, but almost as quick as the moment came it passes and you are back to the people you left me for. I guess all this time when I had been planning out my life, I never stopped to ask you if you had me in your plans. If I would have asked maybe it would't have broken my heart so much. If I would have known that you would leave then I would not have been blindsided when you decided to leave the world we had been creating together.

It has been a long time since you left. I don't cry like I used to, I am okay. I am happy more often than not, but I have yet to make new plans. I'm scared.

So all I am left with, is the broken plans, and a phone call every now and then. You may meet me for a meal or go shopping with me, but you are somewhere else. You filled your new world with a love, and with two children who maybe are there for you more than I ever was. I am sorry for that.

It's hard to do every day without you there. There is a gap that can't be filled by anyone but you and it hurts to much to see the empty space every day and wonder why you left. But I stay in this world and I don't build a new one because if I leave you a space, maybe you will find your way back. I could never build a new world without you in it like you did to me. Others did. Others forgot about you, but I didn't. You don't have to come back, but you are always welcome in my world.

Love You Always.